Dream

Had a strange dream last night. I was some royal helper in a distant land where the houses and buildings and such were made of stones and dirt. I had replaced items on an altar to suit my own tastes when the royalty was out of town. I had learned that they were coming back to town to visit the altar so I was working very hard to put things back into place with the old stuff before they arrived. I had a lot of stuff on it so I just started flinging things into a fabric bag. I had almost everything placed into the bag when they arrived unexpectedly.

The man, king-prince-whatever one would call him, was very upset and yelled for someone to bring his sword. I ran. I was chased through this city and eventually I ran so far away that the building turned into modern cement, metal beams, and siding. They still chased me.Everytime I would find a hiding place, they would somehow know I was there and I would run again. There was never time to rest or take it easy. At one point in the dream I had a friend who was running with me, away from the same men. Now the men were dressed in black suits and looked like the guys from the Prison Break series. Those agents who tried thier darnedest to cover up the setup and go so far as to breaking every single law because they were above it.

There was a point in the dream where I hid in a retail building that was all wood. Wood floors, walls and cielings. The palce was a maze and we found ourselves a nice little nich in the back of the building behind several rooms and doors. We covered ourselves in viels to hide our outline. We thought we may have outsmarted them when a light came on in the room that we were hiding in a closet of. The light shown through the poorly built shack like place. We could see the utline of the men as they slowly walked around the room and eventually stopped in front of the closet area were we were hiding. Weboth sat very still and even went so far as to hold our breaths so that we would not move. But of course, there was one more door to got through and after they left the room we went though that door and it lead to the outside.

Later in the dream I have "followers" and the roles were now reveresed. We were hunting the men, who had taken some innocent hostage and had threatened to kill her unless we gave ourselves up. Well of course we would never do that so we trapped them in a building. They hide in a smallish room with no furniture that was under a stair case. They somehow lured the followers into the room and injected them with something that made it easy to brainwash them into believing I was the enemy. So when I entered the room they encircled me, glared at me, and then started to cut me with razor blades when I realized something was not quite right. ONly they tried to cut me in the lower back area. Not sure why.

But I made it out of the circle of the bainwashes and ran outside where I found one of the men who we had been chasing. He tells me that he does not agree with what the other man is doing and wants to help in capturing him. Well, I said, he has baricaded himself in that room under the stairs and there is no way we can get to him with the others in there all brainwashed. Then we came up with the brilliant idea of chopping through the ceiling of the room with an axe. He would not be able to leave because he had barricaded himself in there, so it would be an easy catch. So this man runs through the room with the brainwashed razer blade armed men, runs up the stairs to the top of the room and starts to hack away. The zombie people started to make thier way to them and I rushed in with a sword and started chopping them up. They dissapeared as I hacked then into peices.

That was the end of that scene. Next I was walking away from the building and to the truck which was parked several blocks away. I walked out to the curb and tried to fly. When I failed, I said to myself: I know I am dreaming and all I have to do is know this and I will be able to fly.

I took off and woke up. DAMNED IT! LOL

What a dream! I know it means something but I don't have the time to look into it today.

Until next time...

I'm hearing voices...

When I meditate. Today I heard the words "expecting" and "don't put it on your hands". No idea what it means or who it came from..but I'll keep my ears open in the mundane world for clues.

Until next time...

Meditation: Songs in my head...

I just came out of a short meditation, and I've got this song in my head that I have never hear before. It was song on a low cord at first, then more and more voices joined in and it went just a little higher. They sung:

"There are many Bodies...On this Precious Earth..." This repeated and repeated...then, the phone rang. UGH! I thought I had unplugged that nuscense. I am not finding anything on the web with this song. If someone happens to know it out there, please leave me a comment on it. I am quite purplexed. IN my quest for which Goddess to reasearch next, I saw the Wilendorf Goddess, one of the oldest known Goddesses. So she will go into my books next.

I want to jot down what I did to get into this meditative state. I drummed for awhile, with an orange candle lit. I burned a lavender stick and smudged the room with it before placing it into a holder. After drumming randomly for about 10 minutes, I relaxed and went to a simple heartbeat. Da, da....da, da....da, da.....

Very relaxing.

Until next time...

Dreamweaving

I am attempting to learn how to dreamweave so last night I set an intention on the type of dream I wanted to have. I wanted to get a message for a goddess to research, and then I wrote down that I was going to remember what I dreamed and while I was dreaming I would change the color of something small. Well I didn't make it to changing the color of anything. I dreamed about driving down a stretch of backroads and getting a flat tire and having to drive to the nearest gas station to get it fixed. When I got to a gas station, the tire was shredded and could not be repaired and I had no money to get a new tire. Now, ironically enough, we are having to buy a new tire for the truck because there was a gash in the meat of one of the back of the tires that was causing it to leak. We had them switch the spare out and we planning on getting a new one this weekend and putting the spare back under the truck.

Seems like I need to research a pleasureable Goddess, one who takes time for herself. So far I have only done mostly war or vengeful goddesses. I need to balance that out with a pleasureable Goddess, an abundance or prosparity Goddess, and a love goddess. I think I may stick with the European pathion as they seem to facinate me more than any other and they pop up more than any other. I identify with Freya very well.

I just read that seeing a gas station in a dream indicates a need to reenergize and revitalize yourself. So that would coincide with the flat tire. Without all four tires I cannot go anywhere. The tire is the base of any automobile, the feet so to speak. I know I feel like I am being pulled into many directions and I have many things to get down before the Holidays arrive. Then I need to re-bless my ghost repelling amulet because strange things have been happening in the bedroom again. I did cleanse it the other day and I have had no nightmares or strange experiences in there since. I think there was pent up energy from the reverse mirror spell from last week.

I need to take a chill pill and take time for myself for a couple of days to re-energize. Ironically enough, again, there was a re-energizing spell that I had found in a book I recently borrowed from the library. Hint-hint, my Higher Self says. LOL!

And I worry about the number of worms that seem to be dying off in my worm bin. The mold mites are everywhere in it and I think the numbers are too high for the wormies comfort. I found some white pot worms as I was digging in it today. The bottom is really wet so I am leaving the top off for a couple days streight, if I can stand the smell. The smell is being caused by not enough bedding, and too much moisture. most of the bigger worms seem to be happy and just the juviniles are dying. I've seen many babies in the past few days.

Until next time...

Nightmares

I have been having nightmares since I did a reverse mirror spell last Friday. I'm sure the two are linked as I do not have nightmares often, let alone three days in a row. So I did a bedroom cleansing and blessing. Cleaned the bedroom, dusted, changed sheets all while buring some sage incense. Then made a peaceful sleep sachet to put under the matress and burned some sandalwood incense in closing. We'll see how this works. I was quite passionate with the spell because it was fueled by anger and rage. Got what I deserved I guess.

I tried to meditate last night to do some dream journeying, but every time I try to do it, something falls and brakes me out of it. I dreamed about that the other night. I vaguely remember it but I remember trying to meditate but just as I start to drift something kept pulling me back. Grrr, how frustrating! I was on the verge of getting that floating feeling when Mikie's board of dragon necklaces just happen to fall over and scare the living shit out of me. And of course after that I cannot relax nearly as well. My amulet is supposed to scare off the little buggers from bothering me. I need to bless it by the new moon to refresh it.

I tried to meditate during the day between routes. I lit a purple candle, place it in front of me on a table and drummed a single beat. Da, da, da-da-da, da, da-da-da, da, da is how it went. Well I felt like toning so I tried but I cannot, at this point, keep a beat going and tone. But after about five minutes of toning the drum seemed to tone on it's own! It was very nice. Then I had to take a break because my arms were aching. The flame was dancing all about...never seen a flame do such a thing. But, as always nothing came to me and I experienced nothing out of the ordinary other than drying out my contacts from starring into space for too long. *sigh* The only messages I get are when I sleep. But lately the nightmares have been about war, death, and my damned teeth falling out. ARGH! I know my fucking teeth are not healthy...stop rubbing it into my brains!!

Thanksgiving was....OK. Got some free food from Mikies Dad. I don't get him...he hasn't even spoken about his mother. I feel so bad for her to have two sons who never call her up. I could not imagine ever doing that to my mother. She and I are so close. I don't understand how anyone could not be...being the vessal of their life and all.

Checked the worm bin last night and I noticed I have an over abundance of mold mites. Harmless...but annoying none-the-less. So the remedy, as I read online, is to decrease the amount of moisture in the bin. So I add a big layer of dry shredded paper waste to the bin. This morning most of it is wet, so my bin is a little too wet.